Monday, 12 June 2017

photography style

The truth is, I've hated my blog for a while now, hint why I've decided to completely start again. I've always liked the idea of having a blog but the idea of having to mould myself into something I'm not just to get views is something that never sat right with me. 

It's taken me weeks and weeks and weeks not to finally come to somewhat of a decision, but i want my space on the internet to be not confined into 'beauty', 'lifestyle', 'advice' posts- I want to be able to post whatever I want, whenever I want. I feel like I was constantly trying to be someone else within my old blog posts- always trying to stay relevant and copy what all the other bloggers were doing at the time, and that's probably why it was so so so easy for me to just stop, because it wasn't actually something I enjoyed doing to be honest. I just hated it. 
Anyways, I've decided to completely redo the entire thing and so I can really start afresh. 

The irony is, I originally started off this blog post for the sole purpose of writing down how I'm feeling in terms of my photography but felt like I needed to justify where all my old posts went. Also, for a while now I've been feeling incredibly uninspired with the photo's I've been taking. It's not that I've been hating reaching for my camera, it's more of a 'everything I take just looks basic and generic' and I think I'm noticing that I'm sort of 'copying' what everybody else is doing- and that fucking sucks. 

And I know photography is about personal style and flare but I think I'm starting to lose who I am as a photographer and it's really bugging me. Yesterday I went to see the talk held at the Southbank centre with the legend that is M.I.A and then went to Tate Modern to get some inspiration and I came back hating my photo's even more. 

It's even more annoying because I have so many ideas for photography projects but I just find them shit whenever I actually come round to produce them. I don't know what is wrong with me but I hope I snap out of this soon, because I miss taking pictures and editing.